Fears and timid.

I just realized how timid, foolish and negative I am. Always think of consequences even before things happen. I should have more faith in myself. In the end I would be the one suffers and makes situation worse. No one can change that fears inside my head but myself. That one fear of losing someone so dear turns me to be overly attaching.

We were at stage four,according to wongfu's short film 'strangers again'. We fought over our incompatible personality and point of views. At the edge that we almost gave up to find that balance point but in our heart we know we don't want to. In the end we finally agree on one thing. We fought. We fought to stay instead of pulling apart. We always wanted the best for each other yet we just too busy to argue and not listening.

Jo, I'm glad how you change and humble yourself in such short time. That is one thing you do more than I wish for. Please stay like this? I love how you constantly give me encouragement when I feel insecure. How you tell me I'm beautiful. I feel so safe when you hold my hand and squeeze it tightly. I'm sorry taking your time away from your family and spend boring time with me. Thank you for everything you did. xx