Two weeks ago, my church hold the first holy communion on Sunday mass of 2013.

My heart sank when the screen emphasis only those who are baptized and is one of the church members are allowed to take part in the holy communion ceremony. Upon the speech of my pastor calling these whom fit the condition to stand up, I feel like I'm abandoned by my own family. I silently sat and wept in my seat during the whole ceremony. No one seen me weep of cos. I was pretending I was sleepy and rubbed my eyes spontaneously.

That decision from two years ago is a huge mistake I could never wiped it off from my memory. Nothing feels more hurtful than this. My case is still under investigation by the church committee. All I can do and pray they would accept me again.

因为没有深入认识祢，凭己意而犯下错误入斜途。主祢愿意原谅并从新接受祢犯罪悔改的仆人吗？